sunday, the anniversary of my second year in toronto passed and this weekend has been so off-the-rails jam-packed with busyness that i almost missed it. one way of looking at this is that two years ago last night, i arrived here and started a fantastic roller-coaster of an adventure; and another way of looking at the same fact is that two years have gone by in this crazy city and i have no idea where the time went and what the hell i've done - i feel both ways all the time off and on, but why?

as i may have mentioned in preceding blogs, my life here and now is very different than what i had expected when i moved out here. i was expecting to move in with a fantastic crazy gorgeous woman, and that hasn't worked out quite as expected. i was expecting never to have to work in a enormous corporate enterprise as a long-term technical resource, and that hasn't gone exactly according to plan either. i was expecting to have done my first triathlon already, and i still haven't done that. so those are some pretty major disappointments, especially given the fleetingness of life.

but there are a lot of things that i didn't expect that have been pretty wonderful. i have some amazing friends all across the country - although i seem now to have more of them than i have time to deal with them all - and i even have some whom i've never actually met before - which is bizarre. i am engaged in some fantastic projects and spend my time in more fulfilling pursuits than i ever did when i was younger. i've had so many great adventures in the past year (even more than the one's that i've written up), it's been such a thrill. and finally, this year is finally shaping up to a point where i will be able to choose what to do, how to spend my time, and with whom - i'm so stoked for this upcoming year!!!

things may not work out as you expect them to, and you often curse the obstacles that seem thrown in your path, but once and a while, you stop and look back and notice that you've actually come a long way, and that the trip was pretty cool.  and for all of you who told me that i would start to feel this way again, "shut up with your "i told you so"s!"

- g

song of the day from the past for enjoying the present: somebody waits, blue rodeo